In case anyone stumbles across this blog and wonders what it is, here is a brief introduction. The name refers to losing weight, not my mind (at least I hope that’s the case!)
I am overweight. I have always struggled with my weight and food. I joke that “I was born bigger than a size x” (I wasn’t, but it sure feels that way!) I am 35 years old, a wife, and a mom. Over the years (and kids), the weight has continued to pile on. Last summer I was at my highest weight ever, 280 pounds (I have since lost 30 lbs, but VERY slowly!). My sister-in-law challenged me this fall to a contest....lose 50 pounds by April 15 (sounds easy enough, right?!?!) If we both meet goal, then we get a “girl day” together – shopping, pedis, etc. If we don’t both meet goal, the person to lose the most weight pays the other $50. Anyone that knows me knows me well knows that I have a very competitive streak in me and am very prize motivated (and I am cheap. I don't like to pay people money. Lol). Another personality trait that my close friends know about me is that I am “deadline oriented” (some people say that is code for procrastinator, but that is such a harsh word!) Yeah, the bet was made this summer. Because of that personality quirk, my approach has been “it’s not April yet, so of course I am not to the goal”. I have lost a few pounds, but nowhere near the 50. But it’s not like I can put this off until the night before and expect to win the competition! In fact, when I crunched the numbers this week I realized that April 15 is only a little over 100 days away….about 15 weeks. That is an average of 3.3 lbs a week…eeek! So reality hit and I decided I had better get started (I really hate to lose a contest or bet!) So with the new year here and everyone talking about resolutions, weight loss, eating better, etc. (and all of the holiday food/celebrations almost done & gone) it seemed like a great time to get some focus and get going! (Note: I originally wrote this at the beginning of January)
My intent was for this to be a private, secret way to hold myself accountable and motivate myself. I hate making public announcements of “I am going to do “this!” and failing miserably. It is embarrassing and depressing, and this time of year is abundant. I know it should be motivation, but to me it seems to do the opposite. I am a creative person….I really love writing and photography. So I thought I should combine my 2 loves into something that will hopefully be a positive influence in my life. I decided that a written (and photographic) journal of my weight loss journey (the struggles, successes, feelings, etc) would be therapeutic and hopefully fun to go back and reflect after a successful journey. So I plan to write about my progress, document what I am doing and the results. A chronological timeline of sorts. Now, I since I didn’t want to do this is a public way and have everyone I know watching to see if I fail or not, another option was that I could do the journaling in a strictly private way, for only me to see. But somehow that didn’t seem the right answer either. So I decided to make a blog. While I won’t be publicizing it to people I know (ok maybe just a few people that I know won’t judge me or are in a similar situation), I figured if anyone else stumbles across it and wants to support me in this journey, or I help them in some small way, then bonus.
So in the coming weeks, I will be sharing a little more about me. If anyone out there does find this blog and becomes interested, I hope you will share your experiences, tips and tricks, and thoughts as well. Here’s to a successful journey!